It has been a year and a half and I still haven't found the passion that I crave on so much. Not many people realized, but I think alot. I think alot about everything xD maybe that's the reason for my bad insomia
I wish I could have passion in something I do. I wish I could give my everything in doing something or just fully indulge. I enjoy everything equally. I really hope to be able to just find that one thing that could make me feel really happy just by doing it.
I envy those people who has such strong passion for their hobbies and such. Whenever I see someone who puts in so much effort in doing what they love, I can't help but admire their determination. How I hope I could have that determination to do something c: Maybe I've been thinking it the wrong way, or maybe I didn't try hard enough.
It's finally time for me to move on to another chapter of life~ I am still very much unexperienced~ still so many things to see and learn :D hopefully I could find something that I would never give up in life and enjoy it to the fullest one day.
I am the type of person who doesn't cherish anyone and just takes everyone for granted. I am not a good friend. I would even ignore my closest friends for months without a single contact and feel no guilt whatsoever.... Yes I am a jerk xD but yet I still get depress and left out when they stop caring. I want to change this part about myself. I want to change alot of part about myself. I will try my best :D in becoming a better person.